This time I tested in the early morning and much closer to the day of the blood test. Still negative. I know there is still a tiny tiny bit of hope that it is still too early. But really, I would say extremely tiny now..
Why testing early? It’s calmed me down, helped lowering my hope levels and prepare to see a very low number or a zero when I get the results of the blood test. I’d much rather have a positive shock and see a good number I was not hoping for than the other way around.
I think the problem this time has been that the new drugs for progesterone I’m taking make me feel really sick (nausea), all the time. And I was silly enough to think it was a good sign.
One of the reasons for thinking this was that I checked the notice of the drugs and it said that taken vaginally they had no side effects. So my hopeful brain thought: if it is not a side effect, it must be a super good sign!
I know how we always say we shouldn’t look into online fora but they can actually be useful sometimes. And this time they made me realize that lots of people were feeling sick taking these drugs and therefore that it was not a pregnancy symptom but just a side effect. At least this brought me back down to earth.
Alright, two more days of waiting and then the final verdict will be ready!