As the clocked marked the end of 2013 I was happy to see a really tough year finish, happy to turn the page, and to hope more.
But just now I read what I had written at the end of 2012, and it was seriously quite depressing! So I realized that 2013 was bad but not as bad as 2012. 2013 had a very bad start but somehow I managed to pull myself together a bit and to face some challenges. I have improved eating habits, done a lot more sport, lost weight, tried to be more sociable and active, and become a lot more accepting of my childlessness in a world where everyone else is progressing. I have gone through yet another IVF failure, my first FET and a chemical pregnancy, which is sadly the most pregnant I have ever been. I have been awfully upset but also managed to find some time to smile, have fun, sing, dance, feel well and re-discover some pleasures in life. I did not do much of that in 2012.
But I’m happy to turn the page. I’m happy to have started this new year in a magic city, with a smile on my face and in the arms of the love of my life. I’m starting this year feeling better than the last. Not because I think IVF will work, but simply because I am better.
Here are my goals for this year.
- Mental health: I have been too stressed and running too much last year. I really need to be calmer and go slower this year. I need to take better care of myself and of my husband, taking time for myself and for us. I also need to find a better balance and try not to fall in phases of despair, anger or stress. Meditating more may help with all this, but also more walks and more time in nature.
- Social life: The motto for this year shall be “me first”. I will try to be sociable but without accepting all requests because I feel bad or because I feel I have to, and I will put myself and my husband before other people. As much as I love my friends I do need to protect myself from overemotional or overcomplicated situations.
- Physical health: I will try to stick to the low GI diet, avoiding sugars, eating more veggies, improving my recipes, and doing sports. But I’d like to add some more soft sports like pilates and yoga. I think it will help to relax. I may also follow Fertility Doll and go back to tango. It will be hard at first since I haven’t been in ages but dancing has always helped my mood and well being.
So, lots of stuff to improve, but, above all, I want to take it easy.
Wish you all the best for this new year!!